[Willow]

I got severely triggered last night. Perpetrated up on in a nonviolent manner... yet I knew I had been an unwilling party to fulfill some man's sexual desires and need for attention. I had not part in it willingly, but had to physically shove the man off of me many times before he finally would go away. I even threatened him physically if he did not stop. Anyway... this morning I have that tingly feeling in my forehead that says... bash me. It's very hard not to do it. Called my therapist... want to hide.... worst of all... I want to hurt me. I'll let you know if I manage to sidetrack myself from taking action. I really don't want to walk around with a bruise on my forehead. My bangs aren't long enough to cover it right now. *sigh* Thanks for listening. I asked a friend what could possibly have caused that man to pick me. He said because he knew it bothered me... he got a reaction out of me. I thought I was going to an outdoor concert at an art museum... not a bisexual mating frenzy! I feel so cheap

[heidu]

Willow sweetie, I am so sorry that this jerk did what he did to you. What a loser. His action in no way have to do anything with you. You were just his innocent victim in his sick little game. Don't feel cheap. You are priceless.

I hope you won't hurt yourself. He doesn't deserve this kind of reaction from you. It wasn't your fault. If you should hurt anyone it should be him. Wish I could be there to take your mind off stuff. I am glad you talked to your friend.

Hang in there, you are so great, you didn't deserve this.
Hugs,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{Willow}}}}}}}}}}} try not to feel that way - it had nothing to do with you - you were just the innocent victim here.

I am so sorry that you had to go thru that........that guy is an idiot. Please don't let his stupidity cause you to harm yourself - he isn't worth it...........you are such a sweet person.

Take care.

Mary Alice

[heatherm]

{{{{{{{{{{Willow}}}}}}}}}}}}}

It is not your fault hun. Thank heavens you were able to get him off of you. Please take care of yourself....you are much too important. He is not worth it.

Oh gosh I feel so bad for you. We are all here for you ok?


Heather

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
~~author unknown

[Willow]

thanks so much my dear friends. I'm going to meet a friend who lives an hour south. She can talk with me. We're meeting half way. I've got to leave in a minute. Thanks so much for writing to me. Last night was not good. i'll check back in later. the forehead tingles got better... i am still dizzy, but not shakey anymore. I think I may have licked this bout of self injury urges.

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Willow}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm sorry that you were mistreated last night. There is no excuse for anybody to ack like that guy did. If it happened to me I would feel just like you do and would want to hurt myself too. It sounds like you are doing an excellent job of dealing with a very difficult occurance. I'm glad that you have a friend to talk to. That's probably the best thing you can do - talking to someone and spending time with a friend you are comfortable with.

Take Care,
Wendy

<font color=red>"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker</font color=red>

[Willow]

thanks wendy... i made it through the whole day. Stayed out shopping. Came home and have a stiff drink. Not my best line of action... but better than banging my head. I sure do appreciate your kindness. *hugs*