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Old May 25, 2011, 09:49 PM
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I want so much to cut tonight. I have tried a bunch of stuff to calm down the urges but its not working. I want to feel something...anything other than this horribly disconnected feeling

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Old May 26, 2011, 05:46 AM
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I hope you're feeling better today Nicole ~ and that you didn't cut. I know the feeling of "disconnection."

Do you have a therapist? If not, can you get one? You REALLY need to talk to someone about this. Your therapist can help you with coping strategies when this happens again ~ please don't hurt yourself!!

I don't know your age - if you're in school, talk with your school counselor ~ he/she can help you. Don't try to handle this alone. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee
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Old May 26, 2011, 06:31 PM
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Hello, Nicoleb2! Hopefully there's something helpful to you below:

5 Things That Will Make You Happier (Fox News)
7 Quick Ways to Calm Down (Therese J. Borchard)
Distracting Activities (Nonsense’s list at PC)
Coping With Stress Using Self-Soothing Skills (About.com’s Matthew Tull, PhD)
5x5 Technique (Elysium at PC)
How Do You Self-Soothe? (PC thread)
Jennaorgana's Mood Lifters

Things to do instead of hurting yourself (PC Self-Injury Forum)
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Old May 26, 2011, 08:34 PM
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hi there, I don't know if this helps you in any way but the first reason I cut ever was he disconnected feeling.

It doesn't help in the long run.

Disconnected feelings mean there's a LOT more going on under the surface. Are you working with a therapist at all? Has there been any extra stress in your life?

take care of yourself
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Old May 27, 2011, 01:29 AM
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I've felt that way and I know perfectly well that it's a very uncomfortable feeling. I'm sorry you're going through it. Cutting might bring a temporary relief but as turquoisesea said, it doesn't help in the long run. Please fight the urge. The internal battle itself helps me sometimes. It makes me feel something.

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Old May 27, 2011, 02:15 AM
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I understand. I hope you're ok.
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Old May 27, 2011, 10:42 AM
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Maybe if you talk more it will help you to reconnect with your feelings? (Or maybe you don't want to reconnect to your feelings?)
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Old May 28, 2011, 02:53 AM
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I texted my therapist most of the evening and i'm prretty sure she was annoyed. I am completely messed up... I cut again tonight, with somethung different than wht I usualy cut witth. T isn't gonna be happpy with whats up with my life... I see a 72 hour hold coming up again soon
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Old May 28, 2011, 03:28 AM
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I hope things get better for you very soon
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Old May 28, 2011, 12:26 PM
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((((nicoleb)))) Sorry you are in such a bad place.
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Old May 28, 2011, 06:05 PM
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I suck. I cut again last night. I hate that I resort to cutting. I have no willpower, can't talk to family or the one friend I have. My friend doesn't know how bad my depression is and I can't tell her at this point because it's a relatively new friendship
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Old May 28, 2011, 10:21 PM
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What is your therapist doing to help you?
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Old May 29, 2011, 01:03 AM
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Hi. I know I'm just new here but, I totally get it. I started cutting almost 7 years ago (I'm 2 today), and I was "sober" until tonite...hadn't done it for 3 years, which surprised me as well as the few people who even knew I did it. It IS possible to fight the urges, you just need to realize what's worth fighting for...unfortunately, I lost that thought tonight. But I'll get it back, and you WILL find yours. Be strong.
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Old May 30, 2011, 01:17 PM
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I want so badly to cut again. We just started packing to move in the next two weeks. we don't even have a place to move to yet. we applied at an apartment, so we will hopefully get that...
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Old May 30, 2011, 02:04 PM
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That would be stressful. Is this triggering for you?
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Old May 30, 2011, 03:53 PM
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Very, very triggering. That and the fact that my husand just figured out we have considerably less money in our bank account thann he thought. Pretty sure i'm going to have to cash out part of my 401K
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