[SmackytheFrog]

I cut myself today and I just need to tell someone. I can't tell anyone I know because I don't want them to freak out. I just feel so...bad. I'm upset about this relationship going down the drain but I'm tired of the abuse it brings. I don't know what else to do. I feel so empty yet so overflowing with negative emotion. I hate myself, I hate him and I hate what I've done.

[Can't Stop Crying]

So sorry Smacky...I understand. I cut and then I am so ashamed. Hang in there! You are in my thoughts

[eskielover]

(((((smacky))))),

Sometimes we pick the wrong person to be in a relationship with.....there is nothing wrong in realizing that the relationship wasn't what we had hoped it would be when we first started out. Many times people who abuse lure us into the relationship in the first place & then wham.

It's important to know that the relationship isn't good & that it needs to end & that it isn't good & best to let go. We can care about the person, but knowing that we have to care about ourselves MORE is what is important. Love is a 2 way street & when someone abuses, they DON'T LOVE you. No reason to stay in a relationship that doesn't have 2 way love because one would be loosing the opportunity to find that relationship that does when stuck in a bad relationship.

One has to hold onto reality....what the relationship really is rather than what we hoped & keep hoping it could be.

It's not your fault the relationship ended up being bad when there is abuse in it....it's their abuse & inability to exist in a healthy relationship.....no reason to hurt yourself because you are not willing to stay in an abusive relationship that wasn't your fault for it failing in the first place.

Sometimes if we really look at the situation we are in realistically, it helps us NOT hurt so bad & then lessens the feelings that cause us to hurt ourselves because of it.

[turquoisesea]

I don't want to pry, but why are you still in the relationship if it's abusive

I'm sorry you're cutting. When I used to cut I would often be deeply ashamed of what I had done, in so many ways. Hang in there, it can get better.

[Kate9843123]

Abusive relationships ard tough, it's push and pull, sometimes it goes so great that you canny imagine being in anything else but most of the time it is going so wrong and you find yourself just waiting for that feeling of greatness again. The times it comes around are too far and few inbetween though Hun, you need to get out of it, it is unhealthy for you and making you hurt yourself. You also need to work on some copIng straggles so that when you are upset you aren't cutting. I feel badly for you but I don't want you to feel ashamed. That is not an emotion that does any goos. Recognize the mistake and take the nessassary steps to make sure that you are in a stronger, safer place so that it doesn't happen again. Lastly you get to hate this boy who is being terrible to you, hate him! It is the only force that will drive you to end it