[WePow]

My boss was a total wad today in something he said to me.
Not just a misconception - but putting me down. It was in IM so I was able to go over it many times and read it.
He was on my "mostly trusted" list.
Not now!

But as soon as I was impacted by what he said, I cut my arm.
While at work! In the work room! No one noticed since I was at my desk though and they don't pay attention anyway.

Why is it when trust is damaged is when that happens?

I didn't even think about it - I just DID IT! I want to do more - a lot more. But I won't.

[Sanada]

When being triggerd by someone, its sometimes good to maybe hold ice or run you're arms under cold water for a while.
Give you're self distance from the trigger, take you're self out of the moment and distract you're self somehow.
Ice works for me and cold water on my arms or body (if a bath or shower is close by), if not these, talk to a close friend to get support, get a reflection of why you're angry. Getting a reflection can help vent the pressure caused, someone else see's why you are angry, then maybe they can help (even if its the person who i buy coffee from in my local store).
If you also have it in writing, then re-write it and fill the comments (that trigger), with counter trigger options, e.g- humor, truth, fiction or fantasy; then when you read it you'll see another aproach to whats been said.

Trust being damaged is a hard one to deal with but dont let one persons remarks let you belive what they said. People will say things sometimes, and they dont realise what they said. It could be that 'they' just needed to vent and so they pick a target (i know thats not fair but it happens, it happens to me all the time), but dont let them/him, bring you down.

You are worth way more than someones words of critisism.

I carry a psychological shield, so if someone wants to hurt me they have to get through that first.

Take Care
I hope this helps.
Lots Of Loves

[Lauru]

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I used to cut at work when I got stressed out. I would go to the bathroom and do it right there and then hide the cuts, hoping I wouldn't bleed through my clothes. It sucks I know. I'm proud of you for not continuing with it. I just burned myself a couple of weeks ago, and after 3 years of no SI. But I haven't done it again. (crossing fingers) Sending you safe hugs and support.

[Fuzzybear]

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[WePow]

Thanks all. I am glad I talked to my boss before I left work. He was a wad and sent the same thing out to two other guys. My trigger is being punished for things my brothers would do. That was exactly what this was like. I am exhausted of that workplace but the pay is good. I wish I was motivated to get a different job or do something else, but I have NO motivation at all at this point in my life.

[googley]

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I'm sorry your boss is being a wad. That really sucks.

[phoenix7]

im glad you talked to your boss - i hope he realises just what a "wad" he was

can you tell yourself next time that the problem is his and maybe go for a walk or drink a very strong coffee, try drawing the lines instead of cutting

keeping you in my thoughts