[Lexicon78]

I doubt anyone heard me! I want to cut everything off my body...every inch of fat, every inch of skin, everything! I don't want anything to be left of me! I don't want any part of me anymore because I am too disgusting and repulsive to look at!

Do you know what it does to someone to know that they are nothing to anybody and nothing to look at and nothing to even know? Do you know the pain I'm going through? The panic, the rage, the hate, the pain...everything! I don't even know why I stopped when I hung myself 5 years ago! Men are terrible creations! They are insensitive, liars, cruel, deceitful....I don't know anymore!

[Overcastbutclearing]

LEX: I hear you! I HEAR YOU!!! I HEAR YOU!!
And , I am hoping that you have been able to keep yourself from cutting tonight. I know you feel immense pain. And know you have been hurt. I can hear it.
BUT, please...call your t, a friend, someone to talk to.
Please stay safe.

I HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR.................
And I care about you!

[Rapunzel]

Lex, I hear you too. You know what? He's not worth it. You are worth more than he gives you credit for.

Take Care,
Rap

((((((((Lex)))))))))) I'm sorry, I didn't come to the Self Injury section yesterday, so I didn't see your posts or I would have responded sooner.
Lex,please don't think that with the cutting yourself up and hanging yourself-you made me cringe big time. (My brother-in-law had hung himself. ) I'm okay though, so don't feel bad. It just sent a bad chill down my spine.

Can you pinpoint what it is that's setting these feelings off?
Not all men are terrible creatures. I know you don't want to hear that right now but it's true.
I believe there are a lot more good men then mean and bad men.
Unfortunately, you've had some pretty sleazy men in your life.
Cutting yourself up or hanging yourself is not going to justify anything and all it's going to do is hurt the one good man in your life you've written to us about and that's your Dad.

Why punish the good man in your life? Why punish yourself?
Please, stay safe. We're here.
If BF is the problem then you've got to move on. Try to find a non-romantic female room mate then take time to pull yourself together and then think about co-habitating with a romantic partner.
((((((((Lex))))))))) Thought you could use an extra hug.

[Lexicon78]

That's ok, Jax. I was just feeling really bad about myself when I posted this and everything. Funny, the thing that triggered all of this has been my bf watching porn. My, what a reaction, right? Yeah.

Did you talk to him about it?

[Lexicon78]

Yeah, we talked about it the next night and then again the next day. I couldn't talk about everything at one time. I just told him that I was feeling really ugly about myself. Then the next day I told him everything.

Was he supportive?
Lex, why are you feeling ugly about yourself. I saw the picture of yourself you posted and physically, you're not ugly and from what I've read in your responses to other posts-you're a warm, caring person.
((((((((Lex)))))))))) You're not ugly, okay?