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Old Jan 01, 2006, 07:48 PM
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I started the new years right.

My wound is saying im hurting on the inside and i will show u by the marks on my skin, i am a volcano of emotions bottled down because its the RIGHT thing to do and now im erupting, and the lava is my blood, and all the pain is coming out, look at the pain the world inflicts on me, look at the death of a spirit just come trickling out. Look at the pain i go through.

My wounds speak alot, more than my mouth can ever say. My mouth speaks words and my wounds speak emotions and pain. How i went so long without cutting, i dont care really, right now i just want to watch my blood come out and feel the releif that i have so missed. I dont want to give up cutting now. I missed my old friend so much. I know cutting is bad but right now its all i got. All my ties to people who could help me have been severed by the new years. No more docs, no more hospitals, nothing. I am on my own.
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Old Jan 01, 2006, 07:58 PM
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I'm sorry to hear this, ((BD))) please take care of yourself!
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Old Jan 01, 2006, 10:49 PM
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I am so sorry you are hurting..

if ther is anything I can do .. i'm only a pm away ok.

(((((((( safe hugs from the other dragon of the fourms ))))))))))
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 12:28 AM
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Hang in there! We are all here for you whenever you need us!
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 01:49 AM
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BD, I'm sorry that you are hurt. What this doesn't tell us is why you are upset, or what we can do to help you. I used to think that SI, and talking about SI, was the most effective way to express how I was feeling when I was hurt inside, but I'm finding out that it doesn't really say how we feel. You used words to tell us about hurting yourself. Words are good for a lot more too, although it can be tricky to find the right ones to say what you need to say. It's even hard to know what it is that you need to say.
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 04:20 AM
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i went to the ER. the docs were very nice and had that dermasceal put on. So now everythings fine. im back to my netural self.
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 05:17 AM
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(((((blackdragon))))) I hope that you are okay and that you will find people again that can help you get through this and hopefully fight the urges if they come back... i cut my self
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 05:23 AM
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{{{{{{bd}}}}}}} Glad you went to the er and got the wound(s) attended to. Hope you are feeling better.

Take care as much as you can.
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Old Jan 02, 2006, 08:34 AM
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((((((((((((((((BD))))))))))))))))) I am so glad that you got your physical wounds attended to. Hopefully in time you will be able to heal the emotional ones too. Please continue to take care of yourself and be safe.
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Also glad to hear you went to the ER. Sending warm thoughts your way!
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