[NeverStoppedCrying]

For once, I am actually quite proud of myself. For what I just did-- or more so, didn't do.
I felt so desperate, the urge to SI was killing me. My days were long and dragged out; I felt like a person dying of dehydration without my razor.
Just now, I found a blade. I thought my parents had disposed of them all, but in the inside pocket of a little blue bag beneath my brother's sink. It was old, warn, and had a few pieces of stubbly hair sticking out- nonetheless, it would satisfy my urge.
HOWEVER--
I didn't do it. Amazingly, I placed it on my wrist, and even though I was thinking doitdoitdoitdoitdoitdoitodoitdoitdoitdoitdoit, a small part of me held on to "No. Don't do it. Keep the time you haven't done it growing." The other part of me screamed DO IT, but somehow, I held on to the resisting me.
I feel so proud of myself. I put the razor away and went back here. :') A small feat perhaps, but such a tempting urge, and I resisted it. I haven't done it for a while, but that was because I didn't have the supplies. I felt punished. Now I feel PROUD.
So. Yeah.
I was a dehydrated person and I found poisoned water. It looked so good but I walked away.

I did it, I resisted. You can too. <3

[Christina86]

Good for you! Yay! You should feel very proud, it's "small" moments like that really help you in the long run to beat SI and be free of it. Good for you. Remember that moment, you can keep doing this!

[Sannah]

Very good!!!!!!!!!!!!!