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Old Oct 30, 2011, 11:32 PM
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I deserve to hurt, don't I?
It's not that my coping mechanisms fail... They fail because to me, I need to hurt. I need to see the blood.
The depression I feel translates into anger, which I can only turn inward. Every single time I hurt my family, every time I fail myself, every time I see myself as weak...
Which is ironic, because when I look at those scars, I feel weaker.

Sigh. Almost made 12 days
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Old Oct 31, 2011, 09:30 AM
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Anger turned inward leads to depression. Feelings are meant to be expressed not stored. How are you hurting your family, if you don't mind me asking? Failure and weakness.... maybe your standards are too high? I don't even use the word failure. I see things as road blocks that I have to figure out how to get around.
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Old Oct 31, 2011, 08:20 PM
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Before medication, it seemed like all I felt was depressed.
Now, on medication, it just seems to be a lot of anger... I hurt my family when I disappoint them- when I argue with them, fight with them.. I hurt them when they needed me the most.
My standards aren't too high, I think. I just want to be alright...
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Old Nov 01, 2011, 10:07 AM
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I can't remember if you have a therapist or not?
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Old Nov 01, 2011, 01:11 PM
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I do... She's great. I'm not...
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I deserve to hurt, don't I?
It's not that my coping mechanisms fail... They fail because to me, I need to hurt. I need to see the blood.
The depression I feel translates into anger, which I can only turn inward. Every single time I hurt my family, every time I fail myself, every time I see myself as weak...
Which is ironic, because when I look at those scars, I feel weaker.

Sigh. Almost made 12 days
It breaks my heart to see you like this.
Thanks for this!
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Old Nov 02, 2011, 08:12 AM
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Now, on medication, it just seems to be a lot of anger... I hurt my family when I disappoint them- when I argue with them, fight with them.. I hurt them when they needed me the most.
Have you talked to your therapist about this ^ stuff?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........

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Old Nov 02, 2011, 08:11 PM
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^ I do Sannah...
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