[Nemo39122]

Do you ever just miss SI? No trigger, no reason, just miss it?

I do, a lot lately. I'm not even sure why. It's like there's this void that I can only fill with some sort of self-destructive habit. Maybe that's what I miss. Maybe I miss feeling like I always had something to depend on, a release if I needed it. I miss how it just blocked out everything, even for just a minute. I really miss those minutes. Maybe there's some trigger that I'm not noticing, although I usually identify them pretty well.

I think I just miss it. No hidden reason, no trigger, just miss it. Alot sometimes...

I don't miss SI. I don't think about it. I hardly SI these days. When I feel very depressed I feel like I need to self harm because it's only way to get rid of my negative emotions.

[Aardwolf]

Yes It does come on sometimes. No reason, no trigger, I'll just start thinking about cutting myself.
Now I'm far enough away from doing it, i no longer even consider following through with it in any way.

Its a bit like if you miss someone you used to know, a pet, an item you lost. Occasionally it just "pops up" in your head..

[forgivexforget]

I miss it. All the time. I just randomly think about it and how I used to be when I hurt myself. It would always be hard to explain to my boyfriend because there was no trigger.