[kaihigdontog]

i manged to go two mounths with out any self injery. but now the last two weeks i have been back at it. iv jest been so down and nouthing elsh seems to help. i cant even tell my t cuse i am afread he will make me go to the hosbital again, so i have to play the happ lithel pancint. i jest dont see any reasion not to any more every thing has turned to s### no matter what i do it is not good enought. i recantly quit my meds cuse thay werent helping, now i dont know to do there is no fouther for me in a life like this. every one wants me to quit si but i think that is the only thing keeping me alive right now. i dont know were to turn or what to do.

[puzzclar]

Did you see one thing that excites me??? YOU made it TWO MONTHS. That's fantastic. What helped you then? What did you do to go two months? Playing the little happy patent doesn't work, trust me, I've done it. And it didn't help at all. Letting your treatment team know what's going on will help, they don't have to send you to the hospital every time. If you think you can handle it without going then, guess what don't go. But if it will help then, you do need to go.

Keep in mind you made it TWO MONTHS!!!!

[Sannah]

I think that you are making progress too kaihig. You went 2 months! Recovery INCLUDES relapses. Keep working with your T and be open about what is going on.