[zombiette]

I don't know what else i can do to stop myself from going crazy...i recently returned to hurting myself...i had done it 3 times within one week...i've managed to hold out for 4 days know but this is just getting so hard, i feel like i need to do it, like if i could just cut then my pain would flow out of me and i'd feel better. i know that's not very logical but it's how i feel. i've never actually cut before, i've used "low-grade" methods of self-harm like deep-scratching and inflicting bruising which tends to keep the urge to cut at bay but i still don't wanna do it because it's hurting yourself all the same. But honestly, the temptation has been so strong in the past couple of days, it's like any object has become fair game...after all, i guess if you're really desperate you can find a way to harm yourself with anything. i keep trying to tell myself that i am better than this, that i don't need to do this, but it's just so hard, and fighting the urge is really stressing me out, i feel like i should just get it over and done with and cut. But then i'll probly feel even worse.....

[jamesH]

what is causing you the pain?