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Old Dec 30, 2011, 03:44 PM
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i cut last night. I deserve the pain after all the pain i have caused my family, especially at this time last year. I hate myself
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 04:28 PM
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by cutting, your not doing anyone els any good. you DON'T deserve to be hurt in any way!!! you also aren't hated by anyone, especially your family and friends, so why hate your self? but i can relate i hate myself too, and i cut today.
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 05:34 PM
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I can understand the way you feel Nicole, but you don't deserve the pain. No-one deserves to be hurt. Is there anyone you can talk to about the concerns you have with your family? Sometimes getting it out to a neutral party, or even just on paper, can help you get a new perspective on events.

And even if you did make a mistake with your family, everyone deserves forgivness and a second chance. What is more important is what you do to get up again not only the mistake that made you fall.
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 05:52 PM
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I hate myself because of the things I have done, because I am a failure, because I have no hope
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 06:55 PM
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I hate not knowing what to say, to help either one of us. I just wish I had the hope for both of us, but since things are "crazy" no words are coming. We both need help, and support. This is a hard time for both of us, and there has to be something out there that can help. Life is tough no need to make it harder by hating ourselves. ( I guess those where the words I was looking for.)
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 07:57 PM
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I'll bet that you are harder on yourself then your own family is (your family not your birth family). You must really feel the need to punish yourself?
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Old Dec 30, 2011, 08:24 PM
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My family is my birth family, and my husband and kids. I'm sure I am harder on myself than they are, that's just the way I feel
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Old Dec 31, 2011, 01:05 AM
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I really, very much feel the need to punish myself for the pain I have caused my family, and the pain I caused myself four years ag when I had an abortion
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Old Dec 31, 2011, 07:01 PM
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The pain of the past, brings us pain if we let it.
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Old Jan 01, 2012, 12:28 AM
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Ouch. My 6 year old keeps running full speed into me and pushing on my most recent cuts. Obviously, he doesn't know they are there, but damn, it makes me want to puke every time!
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Old Jan 02, 2012, 10:33 AM
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How will you be able to forgive yourself Nicole?
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