[blackdragon]

I cut today. so my two week streek is up. I just feel so left out. my friend is getting all these kewl guys at the bar and i cant even go. the only thing i have ever wanted was a kid. and plus i want one before im 21. im ready for a kid. i have a stable job and a loving heart. but because u cant be a DD and go to the bars with ur friends i feel left out. today we went to one of her friends house and i got the feeling after about a hour that i was to leave. they didnt say get out i just got that feeling that they wanted to do something more. You know reading between the lines sort of stuff. he was nice and all but kissing my friend infront of me kind of gave me the for certain message. i know she is going through a divorce andf that its her life. but my life is in a stand still. i just want someone to love me and be with me. seems people are afraid of me because im not the thin girl. no im the fat girl and fat girls dont get guys.

im sorry im just jealous aned feeling sorry for myself cause i cant get a guy to even stick around me for more than ten minnutes.

[LMo]

I'm sorry, blackdragon. I don't think that's true of all guys, though. Actually, I KNOW that it's not true.

(( blackdragon ))

[Lexicon78]

You are a beautiful young woman. There are many guys who prefer women with some meat on their bones! I don't go for women who are thin and all that. I like women with meat on their bones! I know a lot of guys that like that, too.

One thing about bigger women is that they have a better personality and a better sense of humor. Thinner women, IMO, lack that. I'm not saying if you're thin you have no personality, but where I'm from the bigger women are usually more pleasant to be around.

Don't get yourself down. There is the perfect guy for you out there.

[LMo]

I agree with everything that Lexicon said (with the exception of the generalization about personalities and sense of humor... but then again, I've never been to her town)

[blackdragon]

well my boss noticed my cuts so yeah im forced to wear long sleeves at work now. not because its ugly to see but she says she does not want her boss to find out. i totally see what she is saying. I dont want her boss to find out either just because i want my job. But its going to be a hot few weeks of healing for me at work.

[heartspace]

I agree with what everyone's said. Also, BD, you said you were jealous. Not many people are brave enough to admit it: they just become eaten up with bitterness and resentment. imho, I think you should give yourself more credit for having seen that you are feeling jealous. Also I believe you when you say you have a loving heart. That's not always what guys are after on a night out But it's worth waiting for someone who wants that loving heart.

[LMo]