urges again

I have been doing well. Haven't had urges really since I got out of the hospital, which has been... 2 or 3 weeks I think... anyway, things have been stressful at home with everyone but me being sick, and with all that stress, and then forgetting my anti-depressant a couple of times this week, I am having really bad SI urges tonight.
I feel like a balloon that is ready to burst and it's driving me nuts. It's too late to go outside and do anything, and I have nothing physical I can do in my apartment.... now what do I do?

What about other distractions like reading, listening to music, watching tv, calling a friend or loved one, cleaning, etc.? Does the distraction thread here ever help you in times like these? What usually work for you when you're at home?

Hope you can find something that will help. Like I just told someone else...each second that you don't cut adds up & eventually you would have made it another day. Congrats for making it this far & I'm sure you can go further. Please try to remember taking your meds especially if it minimizes the urges. Just hang in there *hugs*

Right now, my problem is that I'm having a hard time focusing on stuff, so reading isn't working. Can't clean much else because I have to be quiet now...

I wish I had a good idea that would work...maybe just hanging around PC will get you through the night *hugs*

Been doing ok for a few days...

Today sucks again though. I want so badly to cut right now. I hate myself, I don't want to be me. I don't even know who I am anymore, I can't remember most of my childhood and I'm just tired of it.

So you are having good days intermixed with harder days. This is an improvement because before you seemed to only have bad days. Hope today is better.

Today royally sucked. Tired of it all

Urges are so bad right now. Trying to just stay on the computer so I don't go cut, but i really want to cut, to make all the hurt go away.

The hurt will still be there...

I hope you had a good day.

Nope. Crappy day, just keeps getting crappier.

The urges are so strong tongiht and I can't talk to anyone about it. I can't fix the cause of the urges... ever. I just want the urges too stop. If i cut, the urges stop at least for a while.

I hope that you therapy appt. is soon and you can talk to your T about this.

I see my t tomorrow. Who knows what we'll talk about. Probably the fact that I feel like crap and I wish I could be totally numb and not care.

Do you know why the urges happen?? Could use Hypnosis to find the reason.. if there is someone in your area that could do that....It's a thought anyway.

Right now, probably just because I am feeling so cruddy, sad, and it's easier to deal with physical pain from cutting than to actually deal with emotions. A deep-seated issue that I have been dealing with for a while... t and I will talk about it some more tomorrow I am sure

Tonight/this morning, I am finding it impossible to sleep. Dealing with major unexplainable anxiety and I want to cut just to make the anxiety stop enough for me to sleep!!!