Everything spiralling down

no big urges but little ones.. things going downward qickly.

Need to see someone tomorrow, taking the day off, but might get me fired.

Havent had urges like this in a long time though.

Will taking my clonazepam help does anyone th ing

i dunno... my meds help but its cause they fit me.. i have had big urges but i dunno try to get out and talk to someone.. even if its your boss or a friend...
talking always helps..

milly

I think the clonazepam will help. Sending you soothing thoughts. I hope you stayed safe
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I did. Took some clonazepam and layed down. Still cant sleep but the laying down is better. feelings mostly passed. Think I mayhave had a bit of a triggery panic attack

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{{{Rainbowzzz}}} Stay safe hun.

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I hope you are feeling better today. I didn't know you posted here or I would have found you sooner. As you know, I've been in a bad place lately. I get to see T tomorrow. I had bad thoughts yesterday and thought I had done something bad but I guess I didn't because I'm still here.
Anyway, this is about you not me. I am here for you sweetie.

thank you all so so much.

Well, last night, after over a year of no cutting I had a few glasses of wine at a party ( I wouldnt say I was drunk, but was def feeling it)

came home, thoughts started racing and I plummeted fast.. and got all triggered over like five things, switching so fast..

And I cut.

All superficial, nothing that requires stitching but basically my whole left forearm on the top is cut to crap.

I am numb now though and have been since cutting.

Its been so long since I cut, Im not even sure how to take care of the cuts... should I wrap them or just leave them since they arent that deep?

Im so dissapointed in myself. I really thought this was something that I had under control, this is the most cuts yet.

Once I did it, I was smart enough to go to ny friends place and staying in the prescence of someone who would protect me,