[jmbxoxo14]

look, i know none if you will understand, but i just need some suggestiions to keep me here. i literally have everything planned out for killing myself, and i almost do every night, ive suffered with self harm for three years. i have extremely bad bpd, major depression, moderate anxiety, bipolar disorder, and anger management. i just feel like none of my friends really like me and say things behind my back, and UGH i just feel horrible about life. im flunking out of school, my eentire family LITERALLY hates me, and no dont say they do because i know for a fact they dont. i just dont feel the need to live anymore.

[SupernaturalLover]

Hun I am sorry that you are feeling this way. And I feel the same. Make some goals, small ones, then go on to bigger ones. But if you truly feel unsafe go to the hospital and tell them so. That way they can get you the help you need.

[Arduos]

I'm also sorry you are going through this. But I will tell you that suicide is not a way to go. Everything is awful right now, maybe nobody likes you at the moment. But it will get better. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next month... but it will change! This world is so beautiful, and there is so much to live for. If you don't like your life, change it. Even go to an extreme of packing a bag, jumping on a bus and travel, see the world and what it has to offer. Take a walk outside at night and look at the stars, see how beautiful they are, walk in the woods and listen to the noises there.
You could also do some volunteering work, help people that can't help their selves. I tried that and to be truthful, it made me feel SO GOOD about myself. It opened up my eyes and gave me a new perspective on life. I looked at myself and wondered, why do I feel so sorry for myself when these people can't even do everyday normal things. They couldn't feed their selves, couldn't dress themselves. I was so thankful for being able to do what I could for myself. I worked in a nursing home as a State Tested Nursing Assistant, it took 4 weeks of school, that's it.
Helping others may seem little to how you feel right now but it gives you a purpose, they depend on you to live, they need you. Maybe you could try it?
You have a purpose, you was brought into this world for a reason, and it matters. I know you'll find that reason, and someday you'll be happy. I hope the best for you If your life is too stressful then stop what your doing, all of it and change it, do what puts a smile on YOUR face! It's your life and only you can do what needs to be done. I know you can do it