[rj29]

I have been trying to fight the urges to cut but i cant control it anymore. Its the only relief I get.

Everything has just gone down hill. Its the only way I feel any control in my life. I feel like everyone hates me and are just around out of pity.

Ive never contemplated trying to end it all until recently. I am so alone and I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch.

Everyday the black clouds grow and its like i cant breathe anymore. I feel like such a failure

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by rj29

Its the only way I feel any control in my life. I feel like everyone hates me and are just around out of pity.

I am so alone and I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch.

I feel like such a failure

Hi rj, welcome to PC. These ^ would be good things to work through. Do you have a therapist? You might feel that everyone hates you and that you ruin everything and that you are a failure but this is your perspective and it really isn't the truth. Your environment has led you to believe these things. Your environment hasn't been nurturing or supportive?