[ickydog2006]

I know it is all in my head. It will be 9 months without cutting tomorrow and I'm excited yet a nervous wreck. Every month when it gets close to the day I quit I will start having all these old feelings. I can taste blood in my mouth sometimes it feels like it is clotting in my throat (like the old days). My wrists will tingle or go numb or weak or itch. I'm sure you guys know the feelings. Does anyone else go through this? WIll it ever stop? It feels like I'm choking on my bblood right now but I know it is all in my head. There isn't anything there. Why does this happen? I want to cut so bad but I don't want to go back to that life...I can't.... I won't

Wow! 9 months! That's so good! You've got the power to beat this! You've already shown such strength and bravery.
I don't cut...but I know how it feels when your body is fooling you into feel stuff that isn't real. I have OCD and it has for example made me feel the scent of smoke... fire... but there is no fire. I feel certain physical needs... like to go pee over and over again before going to bed. I feel it in my body... I HAVE TO PEE! But no... I just went there! I've faught this and came a long way and almost always manage to do it only once nowadays... but boy does it still feel in my body... still a fight.

I don't know if this is any help at all.... but please know, I care!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((( ickydog )))))))))) (if ok)

no matter what.. im very proud of you, ickydog

[bipolar_bear]

ickydog nine months that is awesome. I admire your determination. Stay safe.

[Lexicon78]

You're doing so good!

I know all about those sensations. I'm going on I think 2 months now and I still get that bloodlust, my wrists are always itchy or tingling. I go through all that stuff even days after the last cut.

I don't know if it will ever go away. Maybe it's just like an alcoholic or a smoker who's quit...you always have cravings but you just resist temptation.