No Control

I've been cutting for two years, although its never been too bad. The past month, though, I've just been falling apart. It seems like the only thing I can do to keep me sane and normal is to cut. It clears my head, makes me feel better if just for one moment. My cutting has been getting worse by the day, and I hate it. SH helps, it does, but I hate that it does. I wish I could get help. I don't really know the point of this post, maybe others feel the way I do?

Hi EMoon, welcome to PC. Can you get a therapist?

I wish I could. But there's no way that I'm letting my parents find out about this, even if it would help, and they're my only way of getting a therapist. I would go to my school counselor, but I'm homeschooled.

Hi Evangeline.

I know you musn't be too eager for your parents to know, but you must get some type of help in this. SI carries a lot of negative features...the scars, the risk of infection, and even an addictive quality that makes it so hard to stop. I know telling your parents would be difficult, but speaking for us, I think we'd rather see you do that and get some help in stopping this than see you suffer, you know?

Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers, whatever you may decide.

Hugs,
Harley

Thanks, Harley. ^^ It means a lot. My best friend knows about it, and she got herself out if SI a couple years ago. She's my main support in all this. I think I might try stopping myself, but my heart isn't really in it, you know? I don't have the determination or strength to stop. I'm glad I came here, though. It's one step.

No need to thank me. I am glad that you have someone to talk to about it, and I hope that in time your heart will be in it. We're always here if you need us.

Hi Evangeline, I know exactly how you feel. There is no way I'd be able to tell my parents about my SI. I think it's really good that you at least have a good friend who's been through the same thing to talk to. It's hard, I know. Feel free to PM me whenever :P

-AJ

You don't have to disclose that you SI. You can tell your parents that you need a therapist because you don't know how to deal with your feelings and you have been feeling really bad.

Thanks, AJ! (: I might have to take you up on the offer sometime.

Sannah, that's an idea. It never really occurred to me that I could ask them for therapy without revealing everything I've been struggling with. Maybe I'll try that eventually. (: