[smmath]

there is no question that my former teacher Mr.A has been the most influential person in my life for two years. about a month ago i went and talked to him. he is aware that i am/was a cutter and we have talked about it before and he even saw me scratch my cuts until they bled at a soccer practice. so it was okay that during the last conversation he asked if i had "self-inflicted" and i told him yes. then we talked about why i do it. he understands me and is open to talking about mental stuff and SI.

i am planning on seeing him after school on Tues if he's there. and the thing i am struggling with is whether to bring up my recent SI and that no one is even aware that i am doing it. i know he won't tell my parents... but i don't wat to push the limit on what he'll keep a secret. i am also kind of wanting to cut my arms so that he'll see them and really believe i am doing it. as of now i cut on my stomach so then no one knows.... except for Mr. A if/when i tell him. feel like he won't think that i am doing is as much if he can't see the wounds on my arms.

this might also be the last time i see him face-to-face and i'm worried that i might cut more because of that fact and i might become depressed because of it.

what should i do? any thoughts?

-- Sam

[shlump]

If Mr A is okay with talking about mental illness you should tell him you are cutting again. He likely does understand you, but may not know how far you've gone.

It sounds like you trust him.

When youtrust someone that much sometimes we need to show them how bad we are hurting so they can help us get help.
If Mr. A has not been to some of the places you have been he may not realize how bad off you are.

Please show him and please don't cut. You can show him your sto,mach. That will be more than enough.
Be safe.

lv

Originally Posted by smmath

there is no question that my former teacher Mr.A has been the most influential person in my life for two years. about a month ago i went and talked to him. he is aware that i am/was a cutter and we have talked about it before and he even saw me scratch my cuts until they bled at a soccer practice. so it was okay that during the last conversation he asked if i had "self-inflicted" and i told him yes. then we talked about why i do it. he understands me and is open to talking about mental stuff and SI.

i am planning on seeing him after school on Tues if he's there. and the thing i am struggling with is whether to bring up my recent SI and that no one is even aware that i am doing it. i know he won't tell my parents... but i don't wat to push the limit on what he'll keep a secret. i am also kind of wanting to cut my arms so that he'll see them and really believe i am doing it. as of now i cut on my stomach so then no one knows.... except for Mr. A if/when i tell him. feel like he won't think that i am doing is as much if he can't see the wounds on my arms.

this might also be the last time i see him face-to-face and i'm worried that i might cut more because of that fact and i might become depressed because of it.

what should i do? any thoughts?

-- Sam

If Mr. I

[Sannah]

I'm curious why he isn't telling your parents? At the middle school that I volunteer at they would tell the parents info like this.

[smmath]

i think the main reason he doesn't tell anyone is that he knows that i saw the school counselor so he knows that i am willing to see someone if i really needed to. becides if he even talked to my family i would never talk to him again. but he is a REALLY good person and really cares about me.he even said i could see or email him whenever i needed to.

[mazing]

If you feel comfortable I would try speaking to him It is great that you have someone to lean on. And as hard as it is, please try to hang in there. I can understand your reasoning for wantign to cut more openly - to be able to show your feelings - but I am sure he will believe you and support you even when the cuts are not as visible.

[smmath]

Originally Posted by mazing

If you feel comfortable I would try speaking to him It is great that you have someone to lean on. And as hard as it is, please try to hang in there. I can understand your reasoning for wantign to cut more openly - to be able to show your feelings - but I am sure he will believe you and support you even when the cuts are not as visible.

Thank you Mazing, your words mean a lot to me.

i am trying, but last night i went a little overboard on my usual superficial SI-ing. but soon i will tell him and i really hope he'll be there after school.