Never bad/deep enough

i have realized that i can never cut deep enough. the method i use because my parents won't find out does not allow me to cause more damage. that fact makes me feel weak and inferior to those who SI and cut too deep and need real medical treatment. my teacher told about people who self stitch their DEEP wounds. I am now finding myself feeling challenged to go deeper. but with razors i can't therefore i am making plans for the future to go as far as those who SI severely. i feel the need to prove myself to everyone (at least in my mind) that my issues are as bad as anyones and that i am as good as those who do it worse than i do. i REALLY want to prove myself and cut really deep but i can't now and really makes me morose.

i don't know what to do. but i really want to be as good as everyone else.

Don't cut deeper and deeper. Then you just want to keep going farther and it's never enough.

I know from experience

I agree. You should try to control these feelings and fight them. If you go deepand it up in a hospital they may think you are trying to kill yourself. You should try and get help. Find ways of coping with what is bothering you.

Yeah, don't go down this path. Your issues are important.

I know how you feel, it can be so hard when other people cut more than you, and you're left feeling stupid, and worthless. my friend cuts worse than me. I tried to go deeper, but it didnt help. it caused more problems. The amount you cut, or how deep you cut really doesnt show the size of your problems. You matter, your feelings matter, wether you're covered in scars or have none.