[raelynn97]

I started self-harming regularly at the begining of my freshman yr in high school. It got rly bad rly quickly. I wish i could say tht iv gotten better now but the truth is i rly hvnt. I hvnt cut in a couple months now but i still think abt it every single day. I look down at the word evil on my ankle. Another word on my stomach. Fading scars on my hips, arms, nd legs. Nd i wonder how i could hv let this get so out of hand. How could something tht causes pain become an addiction?

[Dreamer11]

You say you haven't gotten better, yet you've gone a couple months without cutting. That sounds wonderful to me. I know it doesn't mean everything is fine, but it at least you're not adding to the problem by cutting more. I hope you see that as a good thing.

Why do you think you are evil? You sound more like someone who is going through painful circumstances. You're not evil because you they weigh on you.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by raelynn97

How could something tht causes pain become an addiction?

The pain releases endorphins which improve your mood. People have addictions because they have internal pain and all the addictions improve their mood but only temporarily. Working on what is causing your internal pain is what will stop the addictions. Do you have a therapist?