[BeautifulFreak24]

I put this as triggering, because I have no idea what may be triggering to some people, and feel like talking about sh could be to some.

I started cutting about a month and a half ago, and somehow about a week after I started one of my friends found out.
At first, he wouldn't talk to me, and I just assumed he was trying to process it, and understand what was going on with me. But after a few days, he started talking to me again, and what he was saying was really hurtful and negative.
This, along with the fact that my cutting was making me hate myself more, had me trying to stop cold turkey.
It worked for about 2 weeks.
I relapsed a few days ago. I'm learning that this is more addicting that I originally thought.
My friend now thinks that I've stopped, because I don't want to tell him again and have him hate me like he did for the 2 weeks that he knew I was doing it. I'm also not inclined to tell my parents or siblings, because I'm afraid of the same type of reaction.

[mazing]

I'm sorry that you didn't get a supportive reaction from your friend. Unfortunately not everyone can understand It definitely isn't an easy thing to overcome. Most people turn to SH when their other coping mechanisms fail - when you become stressed again the urges start again if it 'worked' last time to help you through the moment.

As hard as it is, try not to hate yourself. As I said, it is a coping mechanism. It may not be as healthy as others but it is a way of coping and it can be overcome in time as you learn new ways to manage stressful situations.

I understand how hard it can be to trust people with this, especially after the negative reaction, but not everyone will react that way. You shouldn't have to face this alone. Even if you rely on the forum for a while - there are always supportive people here who know what it is like.

Hang in there and take it one day at a time. Try to use distraction techniques when the emotions and urges get hard to manage and talk to people when you can. It won't always have to be like this.