[x_BabyG_x]

Im totally freaking out here i didnt know where to post this i just knew i needed to post and rant and get something out. Im totally losing my mind and im scared. I was so full of bad energy and on edge last night i ended up going for a walk on the street at 11pm last night. Because it was dark i ended up freaking out thinking someone was going to kill me and running up and down frefreaking the neighbours out. I got inside and it took me a while to calm down the paranoia. I just wanted sleep, id been pacing up and down all day not being able to stop moving and all i wanted to do was calm down and sleep. It took every ounce of me not to SI i didnt know what else to do. So i took a handful of painkillers instead and i feel so rough this morning, im so ill. Im still hyped up this morning and im scared, ive just had an itch in my arm and had to get some scissors and cut it out it was driving me insane. I have my little girl to look after this morning and i cant keep doing this to us both. Im sorry i posted i just didnt know what else to do

[gayleggg]

Don't be sorry for posting. That's what the forums are about. You need to call your doctor or go to a hospital asap. As you said you have a little girl to keep safe and you can't keep yourself safe. Find someone safe to leave your little girl and get help today. Hope you feel better soon.
Gayle

[avlady]

Please call your doc or T if you have them, if not please get them, you sound like you really need some help to get through this bad time.

[Gus1234U]

hoping that you receive help from an unexpected source, and that you find peace of mind and spirit~

[MoxieDoxie]

Sending postive energy your way but as I have told others I am not a good shot and it could land of someone else.

I definitely agree with others, it sounds like it's time to talk to your T or pdoc.
I do think that you are doing your best to take care of your daughter, but in order to take good care of her, you need to take care of yourself first! I hope that you get the help that you need right now.
Please take care of yourself!

[Earnellzwifey]

Please please please with sugar on top !call someone you know and let come get your daughter and you find a ride to the hospital.
If money or insurance is a issue call 911 let an ambulance take you in. Please don't drive yourself!

My DH just had to this last month and he feel much better after he go help. Just as a fyi he don't have insurance but he had to get the help.

Please keep us updated also.

[tealBumblebee]

Honey I hope you are okay. I really really do. I hope that your absence today meant that you took your daughter to a safe place and you got help. Those pain killers can slow your breathing to a critical point. I can see that you know you're in a bad position right now, and I hope you got whatever it is you need. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers continuously. Keep us updated please. ((( x_BabyG_x)))

[x_BabyG_x]

Thank you so much for the replies guys>

My mum came down to look over my daughter for me and I had a psych ringing me and giving me an assessment over the phone. They thinkit might be bipolar (which Ive suspected for a short while now, i didnt even have to tell them that) so they have transfered me to anopther specialist for one to one sessions to see if I can get a diagnosis and keeping track of my medication. Ive had to get the family involved and tell them everything as I was a risk to myself, and they have bene really supportive. They have known something wasnt right for ages and have noticed ive been declining again this year.

I didnt mean to freak anyone out I just didnt know what to do, im feeling a little better now, but still absolutely exhausted :/ Thank you all again <3