[granite1]

this is different .like before.

TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER for thoughts of SI







I finely fell asleep tonight but then woke up with panic and spinning thoughts.(gee no surprise there)anyway as my thoughts slowed down I seem to have settled on one thought of SI. it is very specific .I want to severely burn my finger tips. I cant get the thought out of my head .i don't understand why.it doesn't belong to anything. it seems to be more of a compulsion then anything. my SI is usually a reaction. it is coping mechanism. it has a purpose.

this thought is very specific . it makes no real sense at all .just a strong thought that this is something I need to do. again it isn't connected to anything. my head is screaming this is ridiculous . it is nothing ,forget about it, and then this thought of pleading to just do it. it wont go away. I know I am not coming even slightly close to being able to say what is going on but this thought scares me to death and I don't understand it .it is differnt

[Sterella]

Hi granite1. Are you doing ok now?

Urges can be specific sometimes, at least from my experience. I would get blindsiding urges seemingly randomly every now and then. I mean, just the other day I wanted to break my arm. For no reason whatsoever. These urges can be very hard to pull away from, and I'm glad that you posted on here to help alleviate the strain.

Please be safe, and reply back as soon as you can!

[Wren_]

(((((granite))))))

when the thoughts come like that it is scary

how are you now ... have they moved on to something else?