shake me to reality pls

I've just been having a really bad week, I've pretty much spent the past few days in constant tears even though I usually find it really hard to cry... just sudden realization of how useless I am and just self-destructive thoughts in general.

I have not SI-ed in a while but ofc it's creeping back into my mind again... I want to but at the same time I don't want to and I guess it's sort of different from urges and possibly more frustrating for me, since when I have urges (trigger alert) I know that if I cut I will feel better, and it's simple, but right now it's not... I'm so confused and thinking about it just gives me a headache, I know SI is not the answer but I really desperately want it to be.

Ugh. Thx for reading.

- AJ

hey, i understand your problem. see wht i want to suggest is that you do not have a definite goal in your life, m a right? if i am wrong then i am sory. u must list down your interests and focus on them. work on them. when u will do things of your interest then u will feel good and will not think of si.

Thinking of you AJ. I know things are hard at the moment but this will pass. The urges will pass and the strong emotions. Hang in there.

How are you doing?