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Nov 10, 2013, 05:27 PM
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the only reason today is lighter is because I self-harmed. I want to do it more, but I can't because the wife is home... i feel so lost. but at least the hopelessness has let up a tiny bit.
i want to do other things, but I promised I would not.  tomorrow cannot come soon enough. |
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Nov 10, 2013, 07:31 PM
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Ever notice how the hours creep by when you feel like crap? I really want tomorrow to come. Between the anxiety and hopelessness, I just want the first day of iop over with. I need to know what the outcome will be...
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Nov 11, 2013, 12:52 AM
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 Sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. Thinking of you.And I definitely know how it feels when time seems to crawl It will change again.
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Nov 11, 2013, 05:14 AM
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I got 5 hours of sleep. That's amazing. That hasn't happened in a while. They (treaters) wonder why the sh is so hard to give up... it allows me to sleep, it takes away the anxiety and the hopelessness, It releases the pressure... I wish it wasn't so taboo.
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Nov 11, 2013, 11:05 AM
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Hope your IOP goes well. Just address things as they come up. Better to do it in a safe place. Just do what you can do. I don't think in most IOPs they monitor your food. When I was in IOP we were on our own at lunch.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin "Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha  |
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Nov 11, 2013, 02:41 PM
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Thanks. It was... triggering. And because I have trouble asking for help, no one knows how bad it made me.
Self harmed when I got home. If it's this bad Wednesday, I will just stop by my t's office. She said I could go there if I needed help but did not know how to ask. I don't want to end up inpatient, but if I fail an attempt, I will definite lose my t. If I ask to go, we can talk about continuing. I would rather succeed, but I have my doubts I'm my ability, so is rather seek her help at this point. Feeling so hopeless.
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Nov 11, 2013, 06:33 PM
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MdngtRain, it is absolutely NOT hopeless. Just ask for the help you need in IOP and with T. I know it's hard but the more proactive you are the more likely they are NOT to "give up" on you or refer you out. I wish I had been more proactive with my last treatment team it might have saved me a lot of trouble.
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