[reesecups]

Well, thus proves that you can go awhile, thinking you no longer have this issue and get bitten in the butt! Right now the impulse isn't too bad. And I'm fighting it, because I'm thinking my emotions are just temporary. It's 2am here, and I woke up ruminating over something stupid. I really hate myself sometimes when this happens over something so minute. I'm fighting it right now. It's been since July and I do not want to do it again. Sorry, just need to vent. Not doing real well right now.

I guess this is my first real test to see if my new coping skills will work.

[mazing]

Well done on trying to resist the urges. I really hope that your coping skills can work for you.

Thinking of you. How are you doing?

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by mazing

Well done on trying to resist the urges. I really hope that your coping skills can work for you.

Thinking of you. How are you doing?

Thank you. I am doing okay right now. By 3:30 am, I called and left a message for my therp asking for an extra appt this week, took a couple of Xanax and tried to go back to sleep. I woke at at 8:45 am from her phone call. I see her Monday afternoon. I'm pretty confused. Friday was such aup and down day that I think the thing that triggered me is not actually the thing that happened that made me miserable all night. I'm pretty confused. Going to journal and hopefully my therp and I can figure it out. So far today, I've lost the impulse. I was scared I would do my usual of obsessing until I did it. Thanks for your concern. I think I'm alright now. Take care.

[falsememory7]

Hey Reese, I'm so glad that you lost the impulse so far today, and I hope you're feeling better. Last night/ this morning was a really rough time for me too, and my impulses were so incredibly strong - refraining from giving in was so unbelievably difficult, but reading your thread really gave me hope. Because you're going through the same thing, and holding in there, staying strong. I've been so scared lately too, and I'm so glad you're doing better thanks for posting this, you have no idea how much this has helped me

[mazing]

It's good to hear that you are doing a bit better today and that your therapist has been supportive

Hopefully the journaling and seeing your therapist soon will be able to help you work it all out

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by falsememory7

Hey Reese, I'm so glad that you lost the impulse so far today, and I hope you're feeling better. Last night/ this morning was a really rough time for me too, and my impulses were so incredibly strong - refraining from giving in was so unbelievably difficult, but reading your thread really gave me hope. Because you're going through the same thing, and holding in there, staying strong. I've been so scared lately too, and I'm so glad you're doing better thanks for posting this, you have no idea how much this has helped me

Wow! Thank you for telling me that. You made my day! I'm glad I could share my experience and help someone. The impulse in me was so strong at times that it would take sometimes nearly 3 days of keeping busy and journaling to make it stop. I was real lucky this time. Take care and good luck yourself!

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by mazing

It's good to hear that you are doing a bit better today and that your therapist has been supportive

Hopefully the journaling and seeing your therapist soon will be able to help you work it all out

Thank you. Now that the impulse is at bay. I'm thinking, but I'm not sure what. I assumed was triggering was maybe the 'safe' the to blame it on rather than what might have really caused the impulse. I'm very relieved I haven't and very confused. Fortunately I will be seeing my therp Monday. Thanks for your support. Take care.