[SheHulk07]

Really, this week has been hell. I'm about a week out from starting my period so it makes everything that much worse emotionally/psychologically.

I'm just so done dealing with everything. Yesterday we were at a family get together and one of my husband's relatives smacked my son who has the sensory disorder. If I knew exactly who it was I would have caused a big fight, but all I know is that it happened.

Then my brother text me saying that he doesn't want X,Y,Z for Christmas, and to buy him A,B,C....I almost lost it. Really?! I can not afford to buy him presents, he said he wasn't going to buy us any and I'm perfectly okay with it. Told him he didn't have to buy my kids anything, but he still does. And then he turns around and sends me this list of stuff he wants?!

We are broke. Like literally have enough for rent and that's it. We have no food in the house. We have disconnection notices for water and electricity. He's not even paying half the rent, and we pay for everything besides his personal grooming stuff. I just can not take it anymore. We get food stamps, but that's not even enough to cover feeding 3 adults and 2 kids, when it was perfect for just the 4 of us until he moved in. I just don't know what to do anymore. We're not even going to have a Christmas or my son's birthday unless we can borrow money from someone.

And I can't tell him to get out..I just can't. He's 35 with schizophrenic and if he's not living with someone, he's homeless. I'm too nice and now it's causing so much stress.

I just want to take everything & be done. I give up trying to make everyone happy & watching my family suffer. I guess I'm going to have to call the crisis line again this weekend or else I'm going to just lose it.

[ThisWayOut]

wow, it sounds like a lot of stuff is going on. I'm sorry it's so difficult right now.
I think reaching out to a crisis line is a good idea. They can help get through the tougher times sometimes. Also, feel free to keep writing here.
If you are in an area with 211, they can help with connecting you to services that will assist with keeping power, phone, water, etc on. I know I faced a similar situation with having everything cut off and not being able to make rent, and I got several resources from 211 to help get things back on track.
Can you remind your brother that you guys agreed not to do presents this year?
Also, if your brother is diagnosed, can he get additional services? Maybe something to help him secure housing on his own (or at least additional services to make it easier to have him in your home)? Would telling the state that you have an additional person in the home help get more in food stamps? Maybe having him apply for his own? If not that, can he supply some food for the house? Are there any food banks around your area? I used some regularly for the past 4 years because it's so difficult to make ends meet.
I hope you can find some relief from everything, and some support.

[SheHulk07]

Thank you for responding. I will have to remind him of the present thing, and I'm going to talk to my parents since it was their idea for having him stay here. I thought about either him applying for food stamps or us adding him on, I just don't want to mess what we're getting up now but I think I just need to do it. And our county has a energy assistance thing that I'm going to apply for on Monday. Its a lot to deal with when holidays are here and I'm awaiting my surgery that I'm worried about.

[mazing]

I can't really add anything to what MdngtRain said - it was great advice - but just wanted to give 's and let you know I'm thinking of you. Holiday season is the worst time to have to deal with so much. Continue to reach out when you can. Tackle it one issue at a time.

[SheHulk07]

Thank you. I was feeling extremely overwhelmed yesterday, today has been a better day. Just trying to deal with one day at a time, even though most days lately I have ended up si at one point or another.