[Victoria'smom]

I f'd up. I got into an argument with my son and slapped him because he yelled at me in a threatening tone. I have never laid a hand on him before. Then I tried to explain to my sister in law why an 11 year old should not be washing the refrigerator but that turned into an argument. I ended up turning a 2x3 patch of my arm into hamburger meat-ish but its not bad enough to need stitches. It be worse if my husband didn't inturuped me . I had a med change and therapy yesterday. My husband and a friend want me to go IP but I feel they are over reacting. I have no plans on stopping until I feel better but it'll be only there.

[Sam2]

The rules of capital punishment for kids ie spanking, have changed dramatically since I was a kid. Back then, it wasn't seen as child abuse providing the infraction was dangerous to the child, like running out into the road, and that the parent had control of themselves when they did it.

If your son was physically threatening and you were in control, I wouldn't get too excited. Its the lack of control and later injury to yourself that would concern me. Some of the worst self injuries occur when the person is either extremely angry or feeling trapped.

I do think you would be better off with therapy, though I don't know if they would take you as an inpatient for the incident. Once we become mothers or fathers, we have a responsibility to save them from having to be our caretakers or witnessing a SI or suicide attempt. The fact that a simple argument ended in SI, I think you realize there is a problem. You wouldn't be here if you didn't.

If you want a cold shock of reality, there are a couple of web sites with photos of what people have done to themselves. Its more than just shocking. I was a deep cutter into muscle, but the photos shocked me. Most of those people probably started with shallow cuts or hits or burns.

You may not like this answer, but before you dismiss it, think of how it looks to your son. You don't say how old he is, but you can bet that if you have SI'd before, he lives in fear of it happening again. People argue, but that doesn't mean they don't love each other. Make some calls and get yourself into therapy. The alternative is not what you want.

Sam2

[Victoria'smom]

He's 11 and as tall as I am. I don't feel it was abuse but its completely out character for me. I have a therapist I saw her yesterday and had a med change. I've seen the pictures and they make me want to SI more. He's never has seen me SI . I'm always behind2 locked doors in my master bathroom. I know if I asked my therapist to admit me I'd be there within an hour no questions asked.

The thing is I've only SI'd 5 x (including these past 2x) in the past 2-3 years and this was the 2nd time in a week. It has always been while manic except now. As a kid I spent most of my free time cutting.