[Stronger]

Three years.
Three years clean!!
And then..........three days ago happened.

This past Monday during my session I told my t I was having the thoughts again. He said 'Which ones, the cutting thoughts or the suicide thoughts'. Both, I told him. And so we discussed the suicide thoughts.
I see him again tomorrow. How on earth am I gunna tell him that I have cut since last seeing him? That I slipped up after working SO hard to heal. That I failed and still haven't forgiven myself three days later.
I'm the world's worst liar, so that's out of the question. He needs to know how bad I'm really doing......but, he's gunna be SO disappointed. I hate having people worry about me.
How am I gunna tell him??

[jacq10]

(((((((Stronger)))))))

You can do it. Your T won't be disappointed in you, he will be proud of you for telling him.

Can you write it on a note and give that to him? I once told a good friend of mine this way when I couldn't bare to tell her out loud.

Gentle hugs,
Jacq

[Idiot17]

Your t would be impressed at your honesty, at your recognition that you need to tell him since he helps you, at your angst over giving into the temptation.
As jacq said write it if you find that easier, or email.
Good luck.

You are not Christ. You are not expected to be perfect.

You had a slip-up. Three years was awesome. Lets see how long you can go again this time.... Maybe you can go four year.?.?.?

[RunningInTheRain]

Wow. Three years is AMAZING. You should be so proud of that. I know that slip-ups are hard, but they happen to the best of us, and they are a necessary part of recovery. Maybe think of it this way: you've only cut once in the last three years.

Try not to stress too much about telling your therapist. He's heard things like this a hundred times, and while he might be disappointed for you because you're going through a hard time, he won't be disappointed in you. And like you said, he should stay updated on how you're doing. Good luck!