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It has been getting worse and worse the last few weeks. The urge to cut myself. I sit here and think about how the physical pain may take the mental pain away. I had a decompressive event back end of last year, was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. Got out and was back in within the month. Now have been doing better. Still having s.t., but not as often and I can control them. But lately, with all the anxiety I am feeling and with my moods going every which way at night, I have been feeling the urge to cut. How do I get past it? If I tell my P doc, will I get locked back up?

I hope you didn't cut (or any other kind of SH).....

Cutting will not fix any of your issues. It will simply add another issue to your pile of stuff. You need to find something that makes you feel a little bit more in control of your world and maybe gives you some positive feelings about yourself.

Maybe some volunteering. Maybe simply smiling at a stranger. Maybe exercise. I can not say what will work for you - (no offense) but I hope you do not join our bizarre club.