[gayleggg]

Hi, the last time I cut was about 6 years ago. Lately I have noticed my anxiety level going up and the urge to cut or hurt myself has returned. I have held off so far mainly because I am on blood thinners at the moment so my blood won't clot leaving me with a dangerous situation if I decide to cut.

I'm now 62 and don't know why this overwhelming feeling is coming over me again. I thought I was past wanting to hurt myself but I need something to take away the anxiety.

Sorry for rambling. Maybe by confessing it will help it go away.

Sorry you've been getting urges again lately six years is such a long time, you should be proud of yourself no matter what the reason is for holding off I've slipped back into it lately and it really isn't fun at all. Have you spoken to your doctor about your anxiety? I hope you feel better soon

[Idiot17]

Six years is amazing.
Hope it will go away by posting yet if it doesn't stay strong!
((((gayle))))

[TheOriginalMe]

I managed a good few years without SI (not cutting, something else), then 3 years ago I started again, I got that under control, but had two episodes earlier this year. I guess it never really goes away, even when you think you are past it. Try to resist because it will try and take over again, just like an addict with drink or drugs.
I find that just admitting that the urge is there really helps me to stay safe. So hopefully, this thread will help you.

[atomicc]

I think for some people, no matter our age or circumstance, there will always come an urge. You are a strong woman, Gayle. One of the strongest I know. You can beat these urges

[gayleggg]

Thanks everybody. Thank goodness the anxiety and urges have subsided over the weekend. I just hope I can stay on top of the anxiety. I will definitely talk to my doctor when I see him. Your support has been very helpful.

[Fuzzybear]

[AngstyLady]

Hey, have you heard that fluoxatine and other meds have been found to cause aggression? I'm thinking of using another med myself ({im currently on fluoxatine) - perhaps that might be coming into play and this is the familiar way you know to expell negative energy ? I hope you stay safe and well!

[sujunew]

Please, Gayle, could you post about what advice your dr gives you? I have just popped into the SI forum because I'm in a similar place to you right now. However it is not mood related nor is it trigger related as far as I can tell. The urge itself is just SOOO overwhelming, it is consuming all my thoughts. I see no need to up my antidepressants as my mood isn't really low at the moment. I wish you much strength and also congratulate you on your 6 year achievement.

[notz]

Be kind to you, Gayle.

[SeekerOfLife]

Trigger I get these from time to time when my emotions are overwhelming. The last time it happened I scratched up my arm. Not a big deal. There was a huge raw bundle of hurt inside and I had to get rid of it.

[notz]

I've haven't cut in several years but I still have urges. I've done a lot of other self hurt things to myself. It's pains my heart just to say that. I can be so mean to me and that knowledge hurts too.

Sometimes I hurt so much I hit, slap, pinch, some other things. These are fairly tame methods to soothe the hurts that I have. I'm proud I haven't cut but resisting the urge ain't for sissies, it's tough business.

Hang in there "G" girl