[InACorner]

I havent cut in a few weeks YEY for me but why am i not happy? Because of the reason that actually kept me from cutting ...go figure. When i went to the doctors the first time in for a really really long time i guess i had psyched myself up to get ready to have some answers. Not a problem right? I wasnt expecting him to say i know exactly what is wrong but a general possiblity with possible remedies would be nice. I got there told him my symptoms and decided to check out my belly. This is when i started praying. My FUTURE mother in law was sitting in the room along with my boyfriend. I couldnt be more mortified. He started pressing down with my tee shirt still covering me..thank God i breathed a sigh of relief..then all of a sudden it was like slow motion. I couldnt rip my shirt down and scream no..otherwise id draw attention to miss witch sitting in the corner. But he did...and to my dismay...which i knew it would happen...he saw the scars...he kept poking at them like a child seeing if a bug was dead...i was like dear God...and he said "what the..." and looked at me..it was dead silent. I looked at him and shook my head no and peirced my lips. Then thank God he pulled my shirt down and left. The worse part the absolutly WORSE part was that in the end he said i was a hypochondriac...we all know why he said this...he was being a jerk. He saw those scars and immediatly thought this was another way. You know i COULD have gotten them some other way...but did he ask that noooo....he gave me cholesterol tests and diabetes tests...safe tests just to make me happy in thinking he was doing something...he gave me laxatives..even though i was going like crazy...just to satisfy me with giving me meds...my scars have made me like the plague...thats why i do them on my stomach...so i wouldnt have to go through that...but i thought THOUGHT that the doctor would be different...i guess i am wrong...he has hurt me deeplly and now i cant help feel alittle tramatized and paranoid about other doctors and cutting...but maybe this will help me stop cutting..i guess thats the good part...but cant i stop for some other...nice reason? Thanks for listening...love, inny

[ickydog2006]

I'm so sorry this happened. I know it's really hard when people who we believe are 'profesionals' should know what to do and then they do something stupid. My doctor thought I was doing it for attention (my mom forced me to go in) and told my mother to ignore it and I would quit doing it. Lets see...ummmm....wrong. I hid and hid and hid it. And I only told my parents because I was forced to by another adult. Doctors can be really ignorant sometimes. I hear some of them are good though and know what they are talking about.

I'm reeally really sorry and hope eventually you can get past this. It is really hard to move forward in recovery when we remember why we feel insecure and untrusting. Hang in there... people arn't all bad...and even a few know what they are talking about.

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inny i wish you never had to go thru that and i hope it never happens again... time for a new dr perhaps (maybe go through and check for one that works closely within mental health realm im sure they would be more understanding and accepting)
YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE THAT EVER!!!!

[Rapunzel]

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You have the same rights as anyone else, and that doctor nees some education. I'm sorry that he treated you like that. It's not right.

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[DePressMe]

I agree, your doc needs some education. I am appalled at his behavior. Maybe you should consider a new doc and maybe a pdoc? My doc and my pdoc are very understanding and I never feel judged. Although I do admit my T is better able to talk about the issue.

[Soidhonia]

Hello INA.
I am sorry that you went through this. I hope that you feel better soon. I will talk to you Monday in chat if you are in chat. Take care Soidhonia

[Fuzzybear]

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