Don't want to hurt myself; like you hurt me (trigger)

Lost for words whisper slowly to me still can't find what keeps me here when all this time I've been so hollow inside, I know you're still there. Watching me; wanting me; I can feel you pull me down, fearing you loving me. I won't let you pull me down. Hunting you I can smell you-alive your heart pounding in my head. Watching me wanting me, I can feel you pull me down. Saving me, raping me, watching me.

I am trying not to hurt myself like you have hurt me. I still feel your touch, your breathe on my skin. I want to wash it all away. I am trying not to hurt myself like you hurt me.

<div class="foot">(Edited by Zenobia on 07/29/04 02:42 PM.)</div>

Oh, wow. What you wrote was incredible. It brought up strong images. I edited it only to put trigger on the title to warn people of the strong imagery in the post. You are in my thoughts.
Take care dear one,
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying

That was powerful.

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