[inanimateobjects]

hello..newish here. i used to be a member a while ago but i think i deleted an account or something i dunno. im a former si-er so this forum is just where i'm most comfortable. it's probably been years since the last time i did anything, i don't remember. it seems like that time in my life was a different version of me when i think back to it. not that it's been easy. i have some big ugly scars on my legs that are a daily reminder of the struggle. i've been lucky but the thought still crosses my mind from time to time, not that i would act on it. just finding it harder to deal with feeling nothingness lately. dunno what i'm trying to say, just getting some rambling thoughts out of my head. thanks.

[celtic.starlite]

Hi there!
Congratulations on the years free of SI! That is a huge accomplishment! Do you have a T that you could talk to about your feelings of nothingness?
Hang in there!

Be well,

Celtic

[inanimateobjects]

thanks. never really had a t...went to one a couple times a long long time a go when i was in school and was able to convince him and my mother that my issues at the time were just a normal teenage phase. it seems that it was and that this now is just another phase in life. i just moved halfway across the country about a month ago and i guess i'm still adjusting to every day life again, but i've had these thoughts for about the past year, from around the time that i decided i needed to move. some days are better than other but i guess that's just life. just trying to find the motivation to get up and do the things i need to like finding a job and making some friends, but that's a lot of work i just don't feel like doing yet.
anyway don't mean to ramble. more or less getting stuff out of my head so i can clear space for more constructive thoughts