I have SI in the past - about 10 years ago.. I have a very out of control ED.. With SI - I ended up in the hospital a couple of times.

Lately, I am considering going back to SI to see if it will help my ED to lessen. I have to fight to not SI... why bother to fight it?

Maybe if I hurt mysel bad enough and often enough - I could achieve the permenant numbness that would fix it all....
what do you think... my Ed is winning again...

I just want to give up and die most of the time.

[Rapunzel]

I think that adding another destructive coping method on top of what you already have usually tends to just build up. I have tried to substitute one another, and I just end up doing more, and still needing to pick up the one I was trying to quit.

Eating disorders are hard to overcome, but just as with SI, what you really need to do is address your emotions and problems in living your life so that you can cope more effectively. SI just helps you to bury the feelings a little bit deeper, and makes it harder to work through it later on.

I wish you well and hope that things get better for you soon. Hang in there.

Rap

[mlilley]

Hi I'm new to this. I also have an eating disorder and I currently cut to ease the pain. I have been cutting since I was twelve years old. I was first diagnosed with anorexia when I was 15 years old. I don't want to cut any more, but have not found any coping skills that work for me. Any suggestions would be nice. Thanks.

[Irine]

"Maybe if I hurt mysel bad enough and often enough - I could achieve the permenant numbness that would fix it all.... "

((((((((freewill)))))))))))

please don`t!!!!!!!!!
it won`t do any good, believe me!