[sami3]

things lately have sucked. i just found out one of my really good friends is moving in 2 weeks. at the begining of january another one of my friends moved. and i havent even talked to her since then. my BEST friend moved in september. and it sucks so bad. and now im having problems with the guy i like, who also happens to be one of my good friends. i dont know what he feels but i dont want to ask him and make everything awkward if he doesnt feel the same way. but i like him so much, i get hardcore butterflies when i think of him. for some reason im frigen terrified of going to prom. im exhausted and completly stressed out. i have trouble falling asleep at night and i cant wake up in the morning. and now my grandfathers in the hospital. and im extremly afraid of people dying. 6 years ago my other grandfather died, and i never got over it. i still cry about it at night. i cry basically every night now. i dont know why. and i dont know if i can deal with another death. i feel like cutting again. im just basically hating life right now.

[Direction]

It sounds like a lot is going on...

Is there someone you can talk to? Have you seen someone before...you used the words "feel like"

Hopefully you can get the support that might bring the spiral under control.

[sami3]

i havent seen anyone before, but ive been trying to stop, so i havent done it in awhile.

[Direction]

If you don't mind be asking - how long is in awhile.

My awhile was Friday I think?

So much going on in your life - now seems like a good time to see someone. Give it a try for a couple of months. See if it helps any...Just be honest and upfront.

[sami3]

i havent for 3 weeks i think. and i dont know who to see. my parents dont know. and im afraid if i tell them they'll think im a psycho. they already think i am cuz of the music i listen to and ive been dressing kinda differently lately. if they knew i cut i dont know what they'd say.

[Direction]

If you are on your parents insurance, then they would probably find out.

A suggestion might be to have a brief conversation with them how all these things going on you would like to talk to a Therapist. Once in with the Therapist you can be open and honest.

Having a 10 year old son come to me and indicated he wanted to talk, there was no questions asked. Of course my ex and I have some issues of our own.

Anyway it normally takes anywhere from a week to a month to see someone. Set the appointment, then have the convesation with your parents.