[TheTurtleLives]

Okay as some of my friends on here know there are 4 things that stop me from Self harm
1. Bike riding
2. Reading
3.Music
4.Writing
Whats wrong then? My mother took all 4 of these away from she doesnt know I use these as a way to distract me from self harm (She thinks i have stopped) she doesnt know that these 4 stop "the thoughts" (Death suicide ways to hurt myself) comeing into my head..now with all 4 gone its very easy for me to be triggered very easy for me to cut and i feel fragile but I do not know what to do my 4 most closet things are gone, stripped away from...I am depressed and scared really scared I'm going to cut and cut really badly...I mean really badly!!
Please some ideas anything..

[celtic.starlite]

B.R.E.A.T.H....

Turtle, I want to first say good job with this post. You said, "I am ... scared really scared that I am going to cut...." Do you see what you did? In the past you would have just said, "I'm going to cut." You changed the way you worded your sentence. So proud of you for this! Those two sentences have two completely different meanings, and you changed it!

In my opinion, here are some things for you to work on:

1. Practice grounding yourself. Sit on a chair with your back straight and both feet flat on the ground, then take a slow deep breath and as you are breathing in count to 4. Then hold it as you slowly count to 4. Then slowly release it and count to 4. Do that for 5 minutes or longer until you feel more relaxed and clam.

2. Try to recognize what you are feeling (you did a good job in this post). "I'm feeling scared that I'm going to cut." Tell yourself that you don't need to cut. "I am feeling angry because mom took my things away." Tell yourself that it is ok that you feel angry.

3. Try doing "soothing talk", gently talk to yourself like you were talking to a young child. Say, "Turtle, you are going to be ok." (use the word "you" when talking to yourself not "I"). Give yourself a hug. Rub your arms. Think about what you'd like your mom to do to give you comfort, and then you do that to yourself. If you want your mom to play with your hair, then you start to play with your hair. You become your mom, you become your nurturer.

4. Tell yourself your positive affirmations again use the word you not I... "You are strong." "You deserve to be loved." "You are loved." "You have many people who care about you." "You are beautiful." "You do NOT deserve the pain."

Just keep doing these things over and over again.

Love you lil sis! Big hugs!

Be safe,

Celtic

[celtic.starlite]

Turtle, I have another suggestion and I know you won't like this one. What if you very kindly went to your mom, and explained to her that those for things help you to cope so you don't hurt yourself. Ask her nicely if you can have one of those things back to help you.

Hugs!

[TheTurtleLives]

Why does Breathing seem like such a challange for me atm?
Thanks you Sis,
As I said in my promise (which i feel silly for making) I will use the techniques, Im okay at the moment im on here i can talk with people...
Thanks you for the techniques.. "You will use them" meaning I will use them xD..
Love you!

[TheTurtleLives]

Yeah I hate that last suggestion thats practically saying "Mum I still cut you took my coping skills may I have one of them back now " Uhh last time she talked ot me bout the cutting she said very strictly "You ever cut just once more and your finished" thats why I cut my thigghs I always were pants so she cant find it..blades hidden in pens.. (im feel like a dumb iditot for saying that but o'well now people know where I hid my stuff )
Sorry if i sound like im being a ***** i dont mean it...