[cherrykix]

Hi all.

It's been a long time since I posted here; things have been really busy. I moved out of home, got a new apartment (have been trying to take care of myself alone), got a boyfriend, started school, and adopted new pets.

Recently I've been going through a very serious and anxiety-provoking legal matter, and it has brought up a lot of bad memories from my past.

I was so overwhelmed with the stress and fear of the situation that I made the stupid mistake of reading a triggering article. I was upset, got even more upset, and burned and cut myself again.

I am so angry and disappointed in myself for breaking my promise to myself and another. I am frustrated, angry, and feeling helpless and hopeless.

All I want to do is do it again, and again, and again. I feel like I opened the floodgates. I don't know what to do.

[Bewilderbeest]

Originally Posted by cherrykix

I am so angry and disappointed in myself for breaking my promise to myself and another. I am frustrated, angry, and feeling helpless and hopeless.

Natural reaction, just try not to beat yourself up over it. To paraphrase what another forumite said recently, look at it this way, you've only relapsed once in over a year. That's pretty awesome!

Addictions are hard to deal with. Just try to remember what you did to quit last time, and focus on those things. And while you have to deal with these current issues, try to break it up into manageable "chunks" so you don't get overwhelmed.

And remember, falling off the wagon is not the end of the world.

[cherrykix]

Originally Posted by Bewilderbeest

Natural reaction, just try not to beat yourself up over it. To paraphrase what another forumite said recently, look at it this way, you've only relapsed once in over a year. That's pretty awesome!

Addictions are hard to deal with. Just try to remember what you did to quit last time, and focus on those things. And while you have to deal with these current issues, try to break it up into manageable "chunks" so you don't get overwhelmed.

And remember, falling off the wagon is not the end of the world.

Thank you for your response, I'm sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. I needed some time to think about what you said.

I really appreciate your view. I think I will try looking at things in the way you describe

[Bewilderbeest]

Originally Posted by cherrykix

Thank you for your response, I'm sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. I needed some time to think about what you said.

I really appreciate your view. I think I will try looking at things in the way you describe

No need for apology - I've been really busy myself and hadn't been on. Besides, the advice was for you, not so I could get you to stroke my ego. Just glad to maybe possibly have helped in some small way.