[StillIRise]

...and I'm really quite sad that after a month SH free, I chose to self harm so much last night. but I also really badly want to do the same tonight. Ugh, this sucks so much!

No point to this post at all.

[ifst5]

Actually your choice of words is most interesting; 'i chose to self harm last night.' It's great that you take such ownership over your actions, it suggests you're capable of taking responsibility. As proved by your month long abstinence. What set off this relapse? Are you able to work your way through this with a professional? Please keep going, i don't think any of us can expect to be 100% of self harm for the rest of our lives but the goal should be on reducing self injurious behaviour and turning to other options first. I hope you feel better soon.

[Daniela0183]

Originally Posted by ifst5

Actually your choice of words is most interesting; 'i chose to self harm last night.' It's great that you take such ownership over your actions, it suggests you're capable of taking responsibility. As proved by your month long abstinence. What set off this relapse? Are you able to work your way through this with a professional? Please keep going, i don't think any of us can expect to be 100% of self harm for the rest of our lives but the goal should be on reducing self injurious behaviour and turning to other options first. I hope you feel better soon.

You say that you "...don't think any of us can expect to be 100% of self harm for the rest of our lives..." What do you mean by this?

[ifst5]

Sorry I missed out the word 'free.' Just my opinion...I found that the moment I stopped pressurising myself to quit SI forever, i did it a lot less. I can't remember the last time I self harmed now but I would never say ill never do it again...

[Daniela0183]

Originally Posted by ifst5

Sorry I missed out the word 'free.' Just my opinion...I found that the moment I stopped pressurising myself to quit SI forever, i did it a lot less. I can't remember the last time I self harmed now but I would never say ill never do it again...

Makes perfect sense!! I was just a little confused for a moment. I agree wholeheartedly. I once promised my hubby that I would never do it again. I failed...epically! Since then, I have told him that I can never promise that I won't. I'm not the kinda gal to go back on promises, which is why I never make them. I think I promised him that because I really, really wanted to "get better." I had faith in myself, but it was toward the beginning of my recovery process. I was harm free for 1 year and 7 months...until last week. Ugh! It was only minor, but it was still the same thing. I felt like I had more control to stop it.

And Tiger, when you come back, if you do, seriously, know that you're not alone in your struggle. I know you probably feel alone inside, like your just beside yourself, but really...you're not alone. I'm hoping to gain some awesome insight and help here as well. Keep your chin up, it's a new moment to prosper

[i dont matter]

Tigers are cool. They are strong and aggressive. Prowling, hunting, purveyors of fear. Masters of their environment.

Maybe you are doing better than you think