[madmusican]

desperately trying not cut, but need the comfort, the release

i feel so alone

your so not alone....
u can read my post- 'its starting again' for proof

stay strong
try delay
try alternatives- ice cubes, rubber bands, throwing apples at brick walls....
just keeping trying
and dont be ashamed if u do cut

[madmusican]

gave up trying

and that is ok

[Christina86]

((((((((madmusician)))))))))))

It doesn't matter if you slip up, it's how many times you keep on trying.

Try to take care of yourself.

ps. Welcome to PC.

[bipolar_bear]

I am sorry you are struggling so hard right now Sometimes our coping mechanisms are just not enough to handle the pain. Please don't be hard on yourself. You are trying and that is important. Please try and be safe.

[ickydog2006]

hang in there and don't be afraid to try again. This is something that is really hard and often overwhelming to fight, especially when you feel alone. Try to remember you arn't alone and canders is right, "It doesn't matter if you slip up, it's how many times you keep on trying."

I hope things get a little easier for you.

Take care

(((((((hugs))))))))

[madmusican]

thank you all for your messages

i still feel like a complete faliure tho i will keep trying but it really is tough sometimes

[jacq10]

((((((((((((Madmusican))))))))))))

I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you right now ... just hang in there the best you can. And if you slip .. well its okay, everyone does things that they regret, and no body is perfect... it will take some time. You are NOT a failure.

Jacq

[madmusican]

have cut everyday for a week now still no decent release. it lasts for a moment and then it is gone again hate this feeling

is there other things you can do for realease
does screamin out help or
writing or
singing along to songs or
punching a punching bag or pillow or
breaking stuff....
i really dont know what you could do i wish i could help
but im here for u
your doing ur best and no one is asking for anything more
keep trying madmusician

[madmusican]

gave up trying tonight just dont have the will power to stop myself any more. feel like i have let everyone down sorry

i'm so sorry.....but tomorrow is a new day. please stay in close touch with us.......love, pat

[madmusican]

I cant do it anymore, i cant go on like this. Cutting and cutting and cutting, thats all I do. and for what?? a moments release, a moments relief from this hell, a moment, IS THAT IT???

No one listens, they wait and try to palm me off onto someone else, doc says see the nurse, who says see the councellor, but you have to wait for that. Why do I bother??

So i come here, and chat to some wonderful people, who try to help. I am so grateful for them, and know i wouldnt still be here if it werent for them. but i cant keep putting on you all, i often think that i should leave here, so as not to upset anyone further. I am sorry, so sorry to everyone here. I am sorry i let you down.

[Christina86]

((((((madmusician)))))))))

You can't let anyone of us down, you're trying... trying is hard.

Keep trying, keep talking, and I hope someone IRL hears you and honestly tries to help you right now. Sounds like you want and need it.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((madmusician)))))))))))))))))) You have not let anyone down. You have been trying so hard. That is something to be proud of. It is hard. Please let us support you.

[madmusican]

gave up trying tonight

crimson tears flowing

[Christina86]

((((((((madmusician)))))))))))

[Fifth_Sonata]

Have you ever thought about using hot candlewax instead? Red marks beat scars any day