[ShantheArtist23]

This is like day 4 of my stomach being all weird and in knots due to anxiety and worry. I can't do anything I enjoy anymore. It's taking every fiber, EVERY FIBER of my being to be able to stay "safe". I talked with the officer, I talked with my therapist today,

Possible trigger:

I told her I was really serious about killing myself

and she had a sympathetic look on her face and kept saying to me "Well, whatever you're dong now, it's working because you're still alive" NO I AM NOT OKAY I"M TRYING SO HARD BUT IT'S JUST NOT WORKING AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I'm in so much pain... it hurts so bad... I have no tears left to cry because they've all dried up. I'm so tired of this nervous stomach I've been having. I GIVE UP.

[mrmag]

Don't give in, i have been in the same point as you have before so close to death yet, living. Its life may be cruel, it may be unbearable just don't give up hope don't suppress your emotions, let it all out and get the weight off your shoulders. you may be in a rut now but, things will get better and your pain will lessen, please, dont give up, live on, there is so much of your life unlived, I do wish you the best of luck and if you wish to talk to someone other than just your therapist you can PM me any time and ill try to respond, just don't give in. I wish you luck and may things get easier to deal with for you.

[ThisWayOut]

does your t have any way to contact her after hours or between sessions? I know it's hard to keep reaching out, but do what you need to. Are your parents (or whomever you live with) available to reach out to? (I'm guessing you are still a minor)... if things get really bad, can you call 911 or ask them to? Or call that hotline, but please keep reaching out. You deserve to be safe, even from yourself.


Also, have you told your t how bad you are actually feeling? Sometimes we can understate things when we are feeling really badly.

[kaliope]

your t is horrible and unethical. if you told her that she should have admitted you to the hospital. it is the law. if you are still in this state, go to the emergency room for help. if not, do anything and everything for a distraction. i personally would pay the 8bucks to get on netflicks and pick a series and marathon watch every episode there is. something funny of course. that will pass a lot of time away. i hope you can keep yourself safe.

[FallingTears]

Originally Posted by ShantheArtist23

This is like day 4 of my stomach being all weird and in knots due to anxiety and worry. I can't do anything I enjoy anymore. It's taking every fiber, EVERY FIBER of my being to be able to stay "safe". I talked with the officer, I talked with my therapist today, I told her I was really serious about killing myself and she had a sympathetic look on her face and kept saying to me "Well, whatever you're dong now, it's working because you're still alive" NO I AM NOT OKAY I"M TRYING SO HARD BUT IT'S JUST NOT WORKING AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I'm in so much pain... it hurts so bad... I have no tears left to cry because they've all dried up. I'm so tired of this nervous stomach I've been having. I GIVE UP.

Has anyone offered u any drugs? You're a minor but there are options! Many people on this forum take a collection!
Can u go to a medical doctor and explain your need for relief NOW!
There are a few drugs where relief is INSTANT!

Let us know how u go!

FT

[ThisWayOut]

how are you doing today?

[Fuzzybear]

[Paibok49]

Please talk to someone that holds a personal connection for you in your life...like a friend or family member. They can help support you when others aren't available.