The last time...

I got really drunk to the point that I don't actually remember doing it, but I woke up in my bed with it covered in blood, the cut was so deep that it really should've had stitches. Now I have this huge scar that I despise, yet here I am, wanting to cut again after 8 months of not doing it. I really don't know what to do anymore, I know I shouldn't listen to what the voices are saying, but they're so loud and they want this so badly.

Don't listen to the voices. Imagine the people in your life. Whenever I want to cut, I find myself thinking of my mother and how disappointed she would be and how I don't want another huge scar. There has to be at least one person you've made an impact on and they would be crushed if you left this earth.Cutting is a consuming habit that leaves you feeling empty, don't let it consume you. Just tone out every reason why you should do it, and listen to why you shouldn't.

I'm really sorry you feel this way, it's one of the hardest things to quit. But focus on the positive, maybe you lived through that night so that you could do bigger and better things.But if you don't stick around, you'll never know.

It's so hard to resist, the relief is temporary at best but.... I truly hope you can, but it's understandable. Be kind to yourself, you're the best placed person to do so and you deserve to be treated kindly.