[SheHulk07]

Lately I've been freaking out at night when I try to go to sleep, and sometimes at random times during the day. So I've been cutting to bring me out of it, and kind of block out everything. My T is out still on leave until the end of August, and the T's I have been seeing isn't much help with working through it. *Sigh* Of course I had an attack last night, and cut more than I have in a while and now it looks horrible. Not deep thankfully, but just nasty.

I'm sorry you're struggling. It's a challenge, especially when your prime support base (the T) is away. Are you seeing a pdoc that can be of help?

[SheHulk07]

Originally Posted by Breadfish

I'm sorry you're struggling. It's a challenge, especially when your prime support base (the T) is away. Are you seeing a pdoc that can be of help?

No, I don't have a pdoc anymore that I see.

Can you write your T? Maybe putting it down to words will help some, even if you won't get a reply until she's back.

[SheHulk07]

Originally Posted by Breadfish

Can you write your T? Maybe putting it down to words will help some, even if you won't get a reply until she's back.

I could write a letter to give to him when I see him, but that's it. He doesn't accept email since it's not guaranteed to be confidential. I have other resources I can use in the meantime. Just trying to get through until end of August.

[mazing]

I'm sorry to hear that things are so hard.

The letter sounds like a great idea - sometimes just getting it all out on paper when the panic starts can help a bit. All I can suggest otherwise is to keep relying on the other resources you have (including any relaxation and breathing/grounding techniques you know) as much as possible and try not to be too hard on yourself. You will get through this and hopefully when your T gets back you can work on some new strategies to try and find a way to manage the panic attacks.

There is always us here at PsychCentral too if you need to vent or talk.

Thinking of you

[SheHulk07]

Originally Posted by mazing

I'm sorry to hear that things are so hard.

The letter sounds like a great idea - sometimes just getting it all out on paper when the panic starts can help a bit. All I can suggest otherwise is to keep relying on the other resources you have (including any relaxation and breathing/grounding techniques you know) as much as possible and try not to be too hard on yourself. You will get through this and hopefully when your T gets back you can work on some new strategies to try and find a way to manage the panic attacks.

There is always us here at PsychCentral too if you need to vent or talk.

Thinking of you

Thanks. I've been trying some breathing techniques and doing yoga once a week. I'm usually not one for panic attacks, but after an incident or 2 between my husband and I, I've been having them more and more lately.

[LonesomeTonight]

So sorry you're having a rough time.

When I'm having a panic attack, I don't cut, but I'll scratch my neck, arms, and/or legs, sometimes really digging into the skin and leaving marks. I feel like the pain helps take me out of it, or at least distracts me. My husband once told me that meth users do the same thing, which made me feel like s***.

[SheHulk07]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

So sorry you're having a rough time.

When I'm having a panic attack, I don't cut, but I'll scratch my neck, arms, and/or legs, sometimes really digging into the skin and leaving marks. I feel like the pain helps take me out of it, or at least distracts me. My husband once told me that meth users do the same thing, which made me feel like s***.

That wouldn't' be a comforting thing if my husband told me that. I can hide my panic attacks from my husband, and anyone else for that matter. And lately they've been happening when he's not home or when he's already asleep so he's clueless.