[asylumgardens]

Cutting was never an actual "problem" for me, really. I started after a rape attempt, but it never got really bad because soon after I started, my mom said she wanted me to get a physical, and I was terrified of the doctor seeing scars, so I just stopped. I guess I controlled it before it got out of control. That was probably close to 3 years ago.

I have started again. I don't know exactly what drove me to do it. I think I wanted to get rid of my emotional pain, and for me it sort of makes me feel better. The pain is focused on my cut, instead of in my mind. I know this is bad. I don't know what to do about it. There's no way I would ever tell my mom about it. It's not a suicide attempt, but I know from a past suicide attempt that when you do attempt suicide, doctor patient confidentiality is broken and they can tell people, like my mother, what's going on. If I tell my therapist about this, will she consider it a suicide attempt? Will she be able to tell my mother? I'm scared to keep doing this, but I'm scared to tell anyone to get help for it. My mom would just get angry with me, and that would make me want to do it more..

[Christina86]

(((((((((((((asylumgardens))))))))))))))

I understand your motivation to want to SI. That's how I've felt when doing it. It is a coping mechanism, just not the most healthy one out there.

As for your therapist, why don't you ask her hypothetically what she might do or ask her what her guidelines are for breaking confidentiality? Then you can decide whether or not you want to tell her. It can also depend on how old you are as well (and depending on the rules for the area where you live)

We're hear to listen and help if we can. Be good to yourself.

your T will listen to you
as you explain how u came to SI again and that it is not suicidal thought but what you have explained to us
if you are legally an adult then you have the rights to request ur T not to speak to your mother
ur T should explain to you at what stage of risk they may need to report to someone else
examples are in cases where there are risks (serious- as in plans being made) to harm others
or actual suicidal plans being made..

talk to ur T find with their help other more healthier options to SI
for that is part of what they can do

[Fuzzybear]

[asylumgardens]

Thanks. I'm just scared. I'm 22, so I'm not a minor, so I guess they can't tell my mom right away, then. I am starting a new therapist May 30, so I doubt I'll be comfortable enough the first time meeting her to tell her, but hopefully I'll get to be soon..

[Christina86]

Good luck!

I'm so glad I'm past the "age of majority" (I'm almost 21) so that my T can't tell my parents. That could be disasterous.

Good luck with your new therapist!!