[rgoldst2]

I ran into the man that raped me a few days ago. Today I had a major nightmare. I am so shaken up that I want to cut again. Both my best friend and my fiance hate it and I am spending the weekend with them. I don't know what to do. It's shaken me more than I'm letting on. I'm scared to go back to sleep. Iwant to hurt myself so badly but I know it will just scare them and make them mad. I don't know what to do. I want to just cry but the tears won't come

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by rgoldst2

I ran into the man that raped me a few days ago. Today I had a major nightmare. I am so shaken up that I want to cut again. Both my best friend and my fiance hate it and I am spending the weekend with them. I don't know what to do. It's shaken me more than I'm letting on. I'm scared to go back to sleep. Iwant to hurt myself so badly but I know it will just scare them and make them mad. I don't know what to do. I want to just cry but the tears won't come

Could you talk to your friend or fiance about the nightmare? Or about how scared you're feeling? Hope you got through the night OK.

[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by rgoldst2

I ran into the man that raped me a few days ago. Today I had a major nightmare. I am so shaken up that I want to cut again. Both my best friend and my fiance hate it and I am spending the weekend with them. I don't know what to do. It's shaken me more than I'm letting on. I'm scared to go back to sleep. Iwant to hurt myself so badly but I know it will just scare them and make them mad. I don't know what to do. I want to just cry but the tears won't come

I'm sorry I didn't see this before today. I hope you got through the weekend.
I'm so very,very sorry you had to be reminded of this awful thing.

Can you phone a helpline or rape support line in your area. When you feel like this, they can keep you company. I live in the UK and use the Samaritans when I'm feeling overwhelmed. They will stay with me and be there even when I can't talk and usually help me calm down.

Whatever crisis or support line you have in your area they will want to help and they never make you feel you're wasting their time.

I feel that these words are so inadequate to send the heartfelt care and comfort I want to send. I hope they help, even if only a little.

[Fizzyo]