I have no desire to stop cutting at all I actually really enjoy cutting like I really really really like it like you know when someone talks about really delicious food and all you can think about is how hungry you are it is like that only better for me with cutting. I get excited about doing it I never stop thinking about it and even though I normally cut to the point where I can't walk without a limp because it hurts so much I still love it I don't think i would ever stop loving it. People always say you shouldn't do that find better coping methods but why it feels so freaking good I can't even explain how amazing it feels to me I just ugh is it wrong of me to love cutting and also to not want to stop?

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I kinda feel the same way I know I need to stop but am scared to stop/don't want to stop. I don't really enjoy doing it I just like the relief I feel from it. But I hate the guilty feeling that comes afterwards.

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Hello eden1515: Well... I would like to suggest that there is no wrong, or right, here. There is simply... oh... let's say: "workable" & not workable. Cutting can be dangerous. It can lead to infection & blood poisoning. It also, of course, leaves scars. On the other hand, if it's keeping you going & you like it... well... maybe it's better than whatever the alternative might be. From my perspective, this is really a choice you have to make for yourself. I think the question you really have to ask yourself is: will I come to regret this in the future? Of course, you can't know the answer to this for certain. All you can do is to think it through & come to the best conclusion you can. If your answer is no, then I guess I would say go ahead & do what you like. Just try to do it as safely as possible. Good luck with this...

I actually feel less guilty after doing it I feel like I have done the right thing when I cut like I am not as horrible of a person.