[Demunie]

So... Uhm...

I used to self harm for 4 years. I stopped because I had this bf who'd do everything i did to himself... He also screamed at me for hours whenever I did something, threatened to kill himself if i'd ever do anything like this again...
Oh well. I hated it. But it helped, i got better. I was more or less "clean" for the past 2 years. Sure, i had some relapses.

Anyway. I started again. It's worse than it ever was. Why the hell did i start again? It's sooo stupid. I'm a failure.



Just had to rant... Sorry. Hope you're all okay.

Take care

[splitimage]

You are not stupid or a failure. You made a mistake, a mistake you now have a chance to correct.

Let's face it, we self injure because it does something for us, that we're not getting elsewhere. Try to figure out what the si does for you, and how you can fill that need in a healthy way.

It's definitely not easy, but you stopped before. You can stop again.

Good luck.
splitimage

[Demunie]

Hi splitimage,

Thx for your answer

I doubt that i'll be able to stop again.. You know, i don't even really want to stop. What's the point? I have scars all over my body anyway, they won't fade, i won't be able to were t-shirts at anytime in the future. Nobody cares if hurt myself or not.
I don't care. It helps

Possible trigger:

(against sui.. thoughts, against this numbness, against everything).

What else do we want?

Take care
(Uhm, @mods: I hope it's okay to post this... If not, feel free to delete it. )

[adam_k]

Your bf behavior wasn't very good. You are not responsible for what he does to himself and he shouldn't threaten to take his own life because of your actions.

You did something you regretted and hurt yourself. I'm sure there was something that was bothering you enough to make you want to do it. What upset you and how did harming yourself help with how you were feeling?