[madmusican]

i dont know what to do, i feel so alone, i want to tell someone how i feel but i dont know who. i feel that someone should know, but i dont know who to trust. i am scared, everytime i express how i truely feel, i hurt someone. i am so scared. i wish i could be free from all the crap dancing round my head. it doesnt feel like its my own tonight. i feel like i am watching my life playing out in front of me, taking a back seat to what is happening. and i dont like feeling out of control. i know i am rambling now and i am sorry. i am sorry for taking up your time and for not making any sense, i am sorry if i hurt you or upset you in any way. it is never my intention, i am just so scared. sorry.

[Christina86]

(((((((madmusician))))))))))))

Hold on. I know it's hard because I'm in the same spot right now, I really am sorry you're hurting right now. It's not fair.

We're all hear to listen and help if we can. You can't hurt us. I know it's hard to trust people, let alone those you don't actually know IRL, but trust me when I say that you're a good person and that we won't leave you.

Try to be good to yourself.

((((mm))))

I am here and I am listening. You are not alone and your words are heard throughout my heart. I am sorry you are feeling this way and I hope you can hear what others say. We are here to catch you and hold you up until you are strong again. What you have to say is not going to hurt me and I hope you know that I am just a pm away if you need me. My heart goes out to you and I understand where you are. Please keep reaching and posting. You are not alone.



((((canders)))

I hear you too. You are also not alone and I am listenng to you too. Hold on and this will pass. You will be okay and we are here to hold you up too while you gain strength to walk on.

purplesecrets

[Irine]

i am familiar with this feeling.
it DOES make sense to me! thngs seem to go out of controll....

i don`t know what exaclty is going out of control...but from my experiance, you better try to relax and LET GO OF TRYING TO CONTROL. when there is no weight of this need to control, after you can let og of this attempt, you relieve...you feel more free and comfortable and htings seem more simple and normal. and handle htings better.

i think that we all have an illussion that we have control. then when things change and we lose it we may start to panic.... (damn how do i spell this word? sorry)
we should not try to HOLD ON to anything! because then we live in fear...

[beelieving]

Hi madmusican,

I’m listening too... and can offer my understanding around the struggle with SI. It’s too hard to do alone. Similar to what the others are saying, try to step out of that fear and trust that you do have support here. I’m sending you thoughts of comfort.

With open arms ~ Bee